Saturday, September 30, 2006
` 1:35 AM
miss the days in jc life. playing hockey and heck the world.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
` 11:19 AM
P.O.D- Goodbye for now
I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine,
Through the dark times even when I lose my mind
.But it feels like no one in the world is listenin',
And I can't ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I
'm still caught in my same ways.
I'm losing time in these strange days,
But somehow I always know the right things to say.
I don't know what time it is,
Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes
Goodbye for now,
Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
I'm still smiling as the day goes by,
And how come nobody ever knows the reasons why?
Bury it deep, so far that you can't see.
If your like me, who wears a broken heart on your sleeve,
Pains and struggles that you know so well,
Either time don't, it can't, or it just won't tell.
I'm not the type to say I told you so,
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
I don't know what time it is
,Or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
And how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)
And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word left unsaid,You should've took the time to read the signs
And see what it meant (what it meant)
In some ways everybody feels alone,
So if the burden is mine then I can carry my own (carry my own)
If joy really comes in the morning time,
then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise.
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
when i can ever get out of this confusing train of thoughts.i wish i know.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
` 1:20 AM
this week was quite slack. went to see doctor on tues to see bout my leg. in the end was excused frm wearing boots for 3 days. hopefully the cream that the doc gave me is helpful. its sickening to see the acne on my leg.
went to khine wa birthday party at downtown east w xiao mao. before that we went to catch singapore dreaming.it was a nice and reflecting show. sometimes we have to forgo our dream in order to survive in a place like singapore. sometimes we have to work in a job that we do not like jus cos the salary offered is higher and it is secured than your ideal job. it made me realise how cruel and unforgiving the world is. sometimes at the end of the day. u dont even know what are you working for. what are you living for. ppl always say follow your dreams but i guess its sometimes hard to do that.
after that headed down to e chalet. it was a nice gathering but the place is too cramped lol. chatted w adeline. still the same fiery temper but she looks more presentable haha. da niao also. the same old him. i was very happy to chat up w junie. so long nv see her alr. she looks more pretty. but still e same size-_-". got to know alot of stuffs frm her.. including her new erm erm erm haha. hope everything goes smoothly for u all. as i chatted up w her. began to think bout the past. how we used to chat up till the wee hours in the night jus talking cock. how we used to study together and flunked prelims tog. i think we really got to know each other better at that time. how time flies. we are so busy w our own stuffs now. im glad she is happy now with her life.=)
maybe i expect too much from you. i though if i can sacrifice for you so much. you wld do e same for me. but i always forget that everyone has their own expectations. so maybe i shd lower down and think through again.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
` 12:27 PM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
` 4:20 PM
jus came back frm guard duty. it was freaking taxing. first time doing guard duty and i was so unlucky to tio the weekend one so poof! off went 24 hours of my weekend time.
all thanks to my prowling buddy. wei liang. every shift we had different themes of wad to talk about. well done buddy! signals is proud of you. haha.
his nonchalant talking made me reflect on my life more. it made me wonder what have i achieve during my 19 yrs of stay in this earth. have i make full use of the time that i had here instead of wasting it away. he told me bout his dreams. his passion for chinese.his passion of wanting to write a script to be directed into a movie. his utmost love for his mum. his desire to stand out amongst the crowd. he told me that we shd always not follow the current and not blindly follow wad the others are doing. we mus create our own legacy and try the up stream. it may be difficult it may be tough but if you perservere you will succeed and the glory and sense of achievement is second to none. he tell me i mus make use of my ns life to learn as much things as i want. to pursue my interests. go learn a new language he said. go learn smth nice he urged.
he ad been liking a girl since he was 10yrs old. till now. his love for her is unchanged. i dont know if its true but if its i wish him all the best.
sometimes i wonder if we are masters of our own destiny and are we merely actors and actreses of our own destiny. i guess that our destiny has already been written but what makes us different frm the pl who chose to admit and bow down to their own destiny is that we can choose how we want to live it out. we have choices.
PS to a friend:
sometimes when you talk to me bout your life bout your daily doings. i feel kinda distanced. i dont know what the reason behind but i jus feel it that way. you seem to carry on n on with ya talkings while i jus listen and try to make revelant comments. a friendship is supposed to be a 2 way traffic not 1 way isnt it? maybe your jus carried away. of maybe you have drawn ya own line and its hard for me to get in. i dont know.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
` 1:19 AM
the girl went into univerisity 2 yrs earlier. the guy jus finished serving the nation and entered univerisity this yr. they studied different courses. he was glad they studied in the same uni so they can see and meet up with each other more easily. as a effort to help the new freshmen adapt to university life, the girl was paired up with this new guy while the guy was paired up with his senior.
they are supposed to show them arnd and help them if there is a need. th guy could adapt very well.however the girl went all out to help this new guy. being a helpful and kind soul, she went lunch with him and teach him his work when he has problems.
as the days went by. the time spent between the girl and this new guy increased. they can be seen anywhere anytime. they got to know each other much better and they hang out more often together. very soon, her guy seems to get her attention less and less. everytime he is free he is not free. he tries to understand and often do not disturb her. he went to lunch alone. he went to library alone. he went back hostel alone. he did everything without her cos she is always not available.
he feelt uneasy when the girl spent too much time with the guy. he tried to tell her but she just laughed it off and chided him for being too sensitive and thinking too much. he kept quiet and said nothing.
one day. he asks her out for dinner. as usual she is unavailable. so he walked alone to one of the eateries. as he walked there. he saw the new guy holding hands with the girl and kissing her. all these while they have been spending time together.
i suck at relating my dream. haha